In The Rain Without Umbrella

Well well.. little rant here.

I know I haven't been active lately. It's cause school's eating up all my freetime.
I'm very sorry guys. I hate it too. But I haven't forgot anything! Guys who I still owe a picture.. you must hate the waiting.. I'm sorry.. but hey.. at least you'll get a better picture?
Cause despite school, I sketch a LOT I think I improved! I just don't have time to scan them and do anything digital. I'm sorry, I'll try to be less lazy!


Now about the picture:

It's Shadsie. My fursona. Kinda.. maybe.. I think?
She is a golden collie Means: Border collie x Golden Retriver mix
Her design will change a LOT. Cause all I know is that she's light brown and lighter brown-ish orange and that's all I guess. But I just wanted to draw her even if she doesn't yet have a final design.
I made this drawing in Paint Tool Sai which is a nice program I like it. Especially line-arting in it!


Background story to the picture: (aka: rant about my life and problems)

Sorry for spamming you with this. But I just don't have a diary, neither a blog or something.

So.. in the picture you can see Shadsie in the rain. Partly it reflects my mood. Partly I drew it cause I don't have an umbrella.. it's f***ing AUTUMN and I don't have neither a good coat or an umbrella. F*** it.

So yea.. I have some issues. Mother has been sick. VERY sick. She got a lot better now, tho don't worry, but she's still quite moody.

Also my family is quite poor. There's only me and mom. Mom's a teacher. Teachers don't earn much money.. So we can only buy what we MUST. Food, clothes and stuff.. but i can.. like.. never buy what I'd want or need. Like this damn umbrella. I'd so need one, so I wouldn't get drenched 3 times a day..
I'd want a transparent one so I'd see the raindrops

So.. no money. I'd love to work. But I'm just 16. and schools already too much. And I could only work from the age of 18 anyway.
So I can't help myself. Neither can I help mom. Which really hurts me cause she tries Everything to keep me well equipped. She barely ever buys anything for herself.. That makes me feel even worse.

So.. conclusion: I'd need a way to get money.
Only possible way I think would be commissions.
Gosh, that could make life much easier! I'd buy an umbrella first, then a good pair of shoes for mom! Then the other smaller things we need here and there. Then it'd gimme much help with paying my ski holiday.
Then I could start sparing money for a new... so needed laptop. Cause this one I have now.. it's very old. Only has 32GBs o.o and It's sucky, slow and I think it has lottza viruses too.. so.. damn it. I'm a digital artist! I need a good laptop! D=

So yea.. many things I need to buy

I'd like to hold commissions but first I'll finish my 3 point commissions left.
Also I don't feel good enough yet. But who knows.. maybe you think different?
And I need a credit card too! My mom doesn't wanna make me one.. hope dad will help.
Then I'd need to get PayPal somehow.. Gosh.. keep on dreaming Shadsie..


SO thanks for reading. If you've read it all.. well, wow. Thanks. Then I really mean something to you it's really nice of you, thanks!

Now back to schoolwork, and surviving